Parker continues to show her true colors, not backing down from a fight! She is one tough baby girl.
She is still very unstable, we don't know if she will be with us for 2 more minutes or two more days. Her right lung is completely diminished and her left lung is nearly filled with fluids now. She struggles for her every breath. She remains on 5 liters of oxygen, and today that has kept her at 93%, but most days she is in the 80's.
The hospice team suggested we have our family come in and say their goodbyes on Friday. My mind is spinning, how can all this be happening to my baby girl?!?!
This was the hardest thing we have ever had to do as a family.
She is so medicated on Ativan and Morphine, she is basically in a coma type state. ... And yet she continues to fight.
This has been the hardest thing I have ever been through. I hurt so bad I am numb. Too many emotions to comprehend or process.
Minute by minute, hour by hour I sit by her side, telling her it is ok for her to go home. As hard as it is to say that, and knowing that when she leaves I will have a Parker shaped hole in my heart that can never be filled again...I know she needs to stop suffering!
No mamma should have to watch their child suffer!
Thank you for your continued support through this heartbreak! We appreciate and need all the prayers!
Love,
Megan
I am so sorry Megan. You are right, no mom should ever have to see their child suffer like you have...You & your family are in our thoughts & prayers daily...
ReplyDeleteMegan, my heart aches for you and your family. I admire your strength throughout all of this. You, Miss Parker and your family are in my prayers every day.
ReplyDeleteMegan. I just spent some time reading through the past posts and my heart aches for you. Aches. I can't stop the tears from flowing. What a beautiful, angelic little girl you will always have. What a blessing to be her mommy, as painful as this is. Oh, I'm so sad right now. Know that your family is being thought of, prayed for, and loved from a distance.
ReplyDeleteMuch love,
Jenny
God Bless you and all that you are going through. I lost my 3 year old son 19 months ago. He passed away unexpectedly in the middle of the night. He suffered a huge grand mal seizure that cause his bronchial tubes to spasm restricting his breathing. I didn't know he had suffered this until I went to wake him in the morning only to find that he had gone "home".
ReplyDeleteAlthough our situations are somewhat different, the lost of a child is .. well there are just no words. I can only empathize with you and pray for you, your family, and your darling daughter. I pray God gives you strength, courage, hope, and later joy of her in memories. If you even need anything or someone to talk with, even though I am someone you don't know, feel free to. (Hollym_williamson@yahoo.com).
Many Blessing,
Holly
Megan, I am praying for you and Parker and your family.
ReplyDeleteJamee
Megan, all my love to you and your family. Parker is such an amazing girl. So are you, your strength as you face this is tremendous. My prayers for strength, comfort, love and peace to all of you.
ReplyDeleteLynn
Megan you are a very strong woman. God will give u the strength you need.. I will be praying for u n parker.. I am in tears just reading this...
ReplyDeletePraying and thinking of you and Parker daily. Holding my son tighter as we pray together for Parker in agreement. Parker reminds me so much of Edmond when I look at you guys cuddling with her. I pray for you how I want folks to pray for us... with tears!
ReplyDeleteI dont know why GOd calls us into these hardest of times... but is there anything too hard for God?... not even our darkest hours can keep the light of His love out. So sorry you have to be so strong right now... praying for rest for you and your whole family.